Avoidant Personality Disorder may be an issue the army and Jaycees gave me?

The evidence here consists of court records, legal documents and other items scanned into pdf:

1. Threatened with prosecution by writing about Stigma (5-25-99)
2. Menacing by Stalking charges filed for writing about Stigma.
3. Did the Prosecutor, Public Defender, and the Court Break the Law?
4. Demanding Justice from "the State"
5. Looking for Justice from the Jaycees Group Nationally
6. The Jaycees Group takes Court action, causes worse Stigma. (6-13-01)
7. Hate Crimes are acceptable against the mentally ill?
8. Are the Jaycees like a hate group or cult? - Additional exhibits
9. New developments in 2004
10. My answer to their court complaint - Oct. 2006

I have tried my best to have the crimes against me prosecuted in Bowling Green, Ohio.  The police have sided with my attackers and refused to listen to my complaints.  The Jaycees civic group has the support of a city prosecutor who was a member.  I guess it is ok to be criminals when you have the protection of police and prosecutors.  Apparently no checks and balances exist in Ohio to prevent such corruption, conspiracy, and cover-up.
 
 

The state becomes involved in the attack, under the banner of law:
(The confrontations against me reach a new extreme.)

I was being blamed for hurting other people.  When I claimed that I was the one being hurt, they blamed me for bringing it on to myself.  Everything was considered my fault.  Every attempt that I made to find support or discover the truth would later be used against me.  Through this all I was my only real advocate, taking care of my own issues and dealing with the complaints about me.

Based on Ohio law the civic group knowingly engaged in Menacing by Stalking as soon as I had become a member.  Criminal intent was demonstrated by the civic group by ignoring my complaints about the psychological harm being caused by their actions.  The letters that I had sent clearly show a worsening mental illness and my attempt to stop their destructive harassment.

Bowling Green Prosecutor Matthew Reger knowingly protected, and assisted, in the criminal conduct of the civic group.  He made a number of phone calls and sent letters blaming me and accusing me of being the criminal.  Because his actions were a continuation of a conspiracy by a larger group of people it is equivalent to one person harassing me hundreds of times.  Most people can not endure that much harassment without breaking or staring to believe the lies.

This conspiracy continues to exist and has profited Prosecutor Reger and others with increased status and rewards.  See the thanks given to Prosecutor Reger in prosecutor-5-to-9.pdf .

Notes:  I have blocked out personal information in good faith.  Though I do not make it clear to the end, most of the actions against me were attacks on my having a mental illness.

 

1. Threatened with prosecution by writing about Stigma (5-25-99)

(I was writing about what was happening to me without knowing it was Stigma.  I learned about mental illness Stigma as an issue in 2004.)

I grew up with the idea that the state served to protect people.  It never occurred to me that the state could blindly hurt and destroy the people it was chartered to protect, under the banner of law.  The state has knowingly caused or allowed mental distress against people diagnosed with mental illness.  This is the crime of "Menacing by Stalking".

Prosecutor Matthew Reger, Bowling Green, Ohio, had seen all the evidence that I was under mental distress as he admits seeing the cards and letters.  How can he be blind to criminal behavior by the civic group and his own actions then accuse me of crime?  Look at his behavior and that of the civic group for yourself.

One thing was certain.  The prosecutor was not concerned about discovering the actual truth.  He had already made his decision.  Do people try to find insight or do they make up what they wish to believe?

b. exhibit-11-n-12 and exhibit 3, p-10: (my reply to the prosecutor) - I was still having serious trouble as explained on the last web page, civic-start.  The additional threat of criminal charges did not help the situation.  I seriously started to consider if the attacks on me were in fact criminal, thought I was in no shape to sort it out on my own.  Many of the individual attacks on me were menacing.  More troubling was that the group and prosecutor seemed to think it was ok to attack me, but not ok for me to complain about it.

Note:  I did not expect these letters to the prosecutor to be public information.  I believed that Lori Terwilliger was making claims about me because other members suggested it.  However, she may have only been a pawn herself as I had been.  As far as my claims about her, it was addressed to the prosecutor and no one else.  Any fault with evidence collected by the state should be addressed to the state.  A person driven irrational should not be considered responsible for the answers bullied out of them under threat.

reply to prosecutor: 

d. prosecutor-7 and 8:  I happened to realize that Prosecutor Reger was a new member of the Jaycees civic group as shown in the March 1999 membership list (prosecutor-7) and in an introduction list (prosecutor-8).  He was listed as a member the same month as the "Invocation" (previous page, item 3).  As a representative of the state, I thought he swore an oath to serve all the people, not just his friends.  Note in the introduction (prosecutor-8) that he joined the group to "become more involved in the Bowling Green Community".

e. exhibit-06, exhibit-15-n-16, exhibit-18 and exhibit-03-p15-to-17:  With the prosecutor showing apparent prejudge with his threats, I appealed to the general membership of the Jaycees again.  I was hoping for their protection from the attacks against me.  The group claims to be a "leadership training organization" as claimed on exhibit-18, page 2.  Writing letters and trying to solve issues is part of this leadership training!  They later claimed it was harassment and stalking.

I kept trying: 

g.prosecutor-tape.mp3: (August 11, 1999) The prosecutor left this message on my answering machine "asking" me not to visit the civic groups meeting.  It is the first time I was told that I "could be restricted" and that the national organization was involved.  The statement "to go and confront in this way doesn't really solve any problems" stuck in my mind.  It was exactly how I felt about his and the groups actions!

In addition, it was disturbing to hear his claims of helping to settle this situation.  He was representing the State of Ohio and threatening criminal charges against me.  He also appeared to be a member of the group, so who was he really representing?  The most disturbing thing was being told that it was best to "let this all go".  Apparently my rights were going to be ignored no matter what I do.

h. prosecutor-3:  The prosecutor sent me a letter to follow up on his communications from August 11th.

i. exhibit-19:  When I tried to take the prosecutor at his word to help settle this situation, he did not seem interested.  So I considered him a liar and started writing again.

j. exhibit-20-n-21 : In the past society has attacked, and even killed, people for behavior associated with mental illness.  Are these not hate crimes?  How many people with "visions and voices" were killed under claims that they were witches, possessed by evil, or the like?  I mention Saint Joan of Arc in exhibit-21.  She was accused of this behavior and murdered.  I had her story to show me what people would like to do.  Looking at the later civil case, I was right to fear where this situation was headed (item 6.c. below).

 

2. Menacing by Stalking charges filed for writing about Stigma.

(In 1999 I did not know about Stigma.  I learned about mental illness Stigma in 2004.)

a. exhibit-24, page 1:  Menacing by Stalking charges were filed, in case no. 99-CR-B-02306 of Bowling Green Municipal Court, Ohio.  Notice in 1.f. above that the group was really after a restraining order, which is confirmed later.

b. exhibit-28:  Mental illness was an issue, as stated in this letter by me to the court.  At the time I did not know that the Americans with Disabilities Act (the ADA) should have protected my rights in court.  Considering this letter, no attempt was made to see if I was fit to stand trial or make statements to the court.  The lack of response by the court is my first indication the the courts knowingly discriminate against the mentally ill.

c. exhibit-08-n-09:  I was "represented" by the public defender, who failed to meet with me until minutes before seeing the Judge.  Without my knowledge or consent, the public defender had arranged for a plea bargain if I agreed.  I was only given a few minutes to think about it, and agreed because I was afraid of what might happen under the color of the law.  No one seemed to care that I had a mental illness or that it was a handicap.  The judge warned me about my actions, as if he thought I had been acting as a criminal.  I left the court in shock.

 

3. Did the Prosecutor, Public Defender, and the Court Break the Law?

I am certain that they did!  It was not until 2004 that I knew the the details of the law that I allege they violated.  On the next webpage, page 4, are the parts of the Americans with Disabilities Act (the ADA) that should have been enforced and respected by the prosecutor, public defender, and the court.  I believe that they have also violated other laws or rules.

a. reger-ethics-complaint.pdf:  I did make an ethics complaint against the Bowling Green Ohio Prosecutor, Matthew Reger.  It appears that the legal system protects it's own, public be damned.  Notice that a complaint about a lawyer is called "private" while complaints against citizens are open to the public in police and court records.  (See the false information open to the public on the internet at the Bowling Green Court, "my criminal record".)

It seems that they could only see a person with a problem of mental illness, not someone who may be a victim of illegal activity.  This may explain why so much effort was spent on claiming I was criminal, and so little effort on considering my claims.  I can not blame them as people, because our legal system has failed to recognize and properly deal with these issues.  See my full discussion on the next webpage.
 

4. Demanding Justice from "the State"

a. exhibit-27:  After recovering from the shock of case no. 99-CR-B-02306, I demanded justice.

b. prosecutor-10:  The other prosecutor sent me this letter with the offer to look into my criminal complaint.  Note on page 6 of exhibit-27 (above) I feel that he can not represent me because of his contact with the original prosecutor.  This resulted in special prosecutor, who's report is next (hazing-1).

c. hazing-1:  A third person opinion of how the situation started - I was asked to date for "social purposes".  I disagree with the opinion that there was not probable cause for hazing.  The issue was my function or status in the group, which was not addressed.  Another problem with this investigation is that I was having to supply a criminal offense to be investigated.  The civic group seemed to receive a lot better support from the state in it's claims against me.

d. prosecutor-5-to-9:  On the last page, prosecutor-9, the prosecutor is shown to attend the May 1999 board meeting of the civic group.  On the first page, prosecutor-5, he is thanked for his help.  The other pages suggest that he is a member of the civic group.  Why did the civic group get so much support, and I had to fight in order to even find a suggestion of support?

 

5. Looking for Justice from the Civic Group Nationally

a. exhibit-29-n-30 and exhibit-32  I turned to the civic group nationally.  It is significant that Exhibit 30 was inspired by a Star Trek TNG episode called "The Drumhead".  The injustice and placing of blame mirrored how I felt about the attacks on my liberty.

Letters nationally: 

In the next clip, Stigma is part of why I thought about suicide.  Showing up at the meeting was a way to deal with the stigma.  The risk of being arrested was due to the previous threats against my having mental illness.  Was this the result they were looking for?:
 

"You are talking about killing yourself, and showing up at meetings and taking the risk of being arrested. Mike, you now have some people afraid of you. They don't know if your next action will be dangerous. Is this the result you were looking for?"

As far as resolving the issue with Bowling Green, my roommate and myself did in fact attend one meeting.  Board members members attacked me for having mental illness, and I walked out.  Before my roommate left she said that she told them how I was a good person and that they did not know what they needed to know about me.

c. defendant-A-p1-5:  These messages are from a forum on the internet.  It had been mentioned on the civic groups Ohio website.  I was disturbed to see what they were saying about me, which resulted in my setting up a website to counter their claims on the internet.

- (from page 1)

- (from page 2)

- (from page 3)

d. exhibit-31-p0-to-8: (10-30-00) The lawyer for the civic group sends me a threat to stop telling the truth.  I was being blamed for the entire situation. He makes claims which were out of touch with reality, so I ignored his letter.  The fact that most of the claims were either not true or gross distortions did little to impress me.

- (from page 3)
 

e. exhibit-33: (actual website) - This is a copy of my newly started web site on 1-9-01.  I was responding to the previous events.

f. defendant-B-p1-13:  The owner of the forum in item 5.c. above was also associated with the civic group and sent me a copy of a civil suit they planed to file.  I was not worried because I believed many of the claims were false and only appeared to be out of spite.

 

6. The Jaycees Group takes Court action, causes worse Stigma. (6-13-01)

If there was a time that knowing about mental illness Stigma could have changed everything, this was it.  This court case was all about using Stigma to show that I was a sick, dangerous, evil person who the group could not associate with.  The result was predictable - my Stigma became so bad that I could not defend myself.

I am ashamed that the Ohio Supreme Court and others ignored my 2004 complaints about this "kangaroo court" case  (see failure).  They deserve the Stigma, not me!

This case was filed in the Common Pleas Court of Marion County, Ohio case no. 01CV-0307.  I contacted hundreds of lawyers explaining the situation.  However, the lawyers representing this type of law either were not interested or needed about $5000 to start.  (I did not have it.)  I also contacted groups like the ACLU, who said they were unable to help.  I had no choice but to act as my own lawyer, pro-se.

Note:  I disagreed with all of the claims against me, unless I explain otherwise.
The trademark violation is the only claim from the following that I believe had any real merit.  All of the other claims were attacks on my mental illness or complaints about methods taught by their group.  There were no expert witnesses or hard facts to support a theory that I was dangerous.  Many of the documents are not dated, so can they prove if the document came before or after various confrontations?  As I will point out, I was attending meetings as a member for many months during which they claim I was harassing, threatening, or stalking.  Then had come the invocation followed by their decision to get rid of me (page 3 item 3 and 4).

· My "fears" letter (fears) is part of what they claimed was threatening.  Society lacks so much compassion that they could not see that it was what I was talking about (see compassion and the army on page 1).  Instead they saw violence, the growing theme in society.

One thing was certain in the following complaints and evidence.  No one was concerned about discovering the actual truth.  They had already made their decisions.

a. complaint:  "Complaint for Injunctive Relief" (The "core" of the court case.)  I address these issues in more detail with the other documents below.  Note: I finally sent an answer to their complaint at the end of September, 2006.  See the copy below in item 10.

b. affidavits:  The claims in these affidavits were shocking and unbelievable to me.  My claims about the group are true to the best of my information, knowledge, and belief.  So how was I defaming them?  They claim harassment, however, I was following their examples for conduct (see item 1.e. above).  I find the greatest fault with the following statement (affidavit 1 - page 2):
 

"11.  Michael Lake's letters also threaten physical harm and violence to himself and others."

At the most I have threatened harm to myself because I did not want to live with their attacks and efforts to defame me.  Worse I did not want to live with the idea that I might be a dangerous person, which had been beaten into me so many times.

(If I had known about stigma when this took place, I would have been able to fight back.  I also would have been able to deal with the claims that I was dangerous and my feelings about killing myself.  Why did doctors never tell me about mental illness stigma, or help me with it?)

It was also mentioned on affidavit 4, page 2, that I was threatened with criminal charges when in fact I was told that I would be sued, which was stranger (previous page - item 1).  The police officer did the threatening, not her or the family.  The officer was so upset that he may have used the wrong words.  Perhaps it was members opinions about this police confrontation that explain why I was constantly confronted, threatened, and given "advice" after it happened.  If they thought I was threatened with criminal charges, why did they keep me as a member for 6 months afterwards?  (previous page - item 3):
 

"8.  As a result ... and her family threatened criminal charges against Michael Lake."

c. exhibit-38-p1:  After the first court appearance on June 26, 2001, I went home and started reading the hundreds of pages that I had been given so far.  It was a shock to see the following statements in exhibit 38, from the civic groups board meeting at state level.  They certainly acted like I am some sort of crazy stalker-killer!:
 

"U.S. is concerned he'll show up w/ a gun" ... "Will probably get a restraining order, he'll probably break it, go to court & ultimately jailed."

d. exhibit-50:  I contacted their lawyer by e-mail about the case.  I was upset about the claims that I was a dangerous killer. He explains the attack from the civic group very well in the following clip:

e. contra:  "Plaintiff's Motion Contra Defendants Motion to Strike".  The truth made clear - I was being attacked for having a mental illness, "manic depression"! See the clip below from page 2.  (BiPolar Disorder is the proper name.)  This attack on me supports my belief that they were treating me like hate group, by showing bigotry for the mentally ill:

- (page 2 of contra)

It was the civic group that was intentionally causing the low self esteem and isolation that they were complaining about!  For example, claiming:

"More recent examples include deadly attacks on public schools -- including Columbine High School in Littleton, Colorado
-- by students who then killed themselves."

- (page 3 of contra)

On page 2, I am immediately confronted about the assault that I imagined had happened as a child.  As I had stated on the previous web page, I was irrational when I imagined remembering the assault (see cards).  My "abject fear of being alone" was only another example of being pressured to explain and guessing at the truth.  The isolation of being attacked for mental illness did make me feel alone.  It is sad that he had to compare it the Columbine High School killings as if all lonely mentally people want to kill others.

He clearly recognized that I had mental illness and was taking everything literally, as if I could explain all my actions in detail.  The pressure to give details was the same pressure that caused me to write everyone in the first place!

This entire section between page 2 and 3 in contra is an attack on mental illness without the support of expert witness or other qualified proof:
 

"... It is well-recognized that persons suffering from manic depression often contemplate and even act upon their suicidal thoughts. Unfortunately, all too often persons having such low self-esteem and death wishes chose to kill others in conjunction with destroying themselves.  Undersigned counsel's own family has experienced this dynamic when an unwanted suitor murdered undersigned counsel's paternal grandmother just before killing himself. More recent examples include deadly attacks on public schools -- including  -- by students who then killed themselves. It is well-documented that such attackers are often estranged from the general populations of their school systems, a circumstance not unlike that presented in the instant litigation."

I was told in 2004 that their lawyer's claim about his grandmother being killed by someone with depression is a lie, that she died of cancer.  In 2003 their lawyer was permanently disbarred for his dishonesty in other cases. See item 9 below. Though I had complained to the court that many of his actions seemed improper and dishonest, nothing was done about it.

(Ironic that the same pressures to give details would eventuality cause me find a reasonable answer for my own behavior.  Indeed, the solution and evidence that I provide on this website is the result of the attacks against me.  It was my effort to stay strong and refuse to accept the attacks that forced me to keep seeking the truth.  It took so long because society seems to think it is ok to attack and harm the mentally ill.  I had to understand and accept that this tradition is evil and wrong.)

 

7. Hate Crimes are acceptable against the Mentally ill?
 

Hate would be motivation to discredit me.  Fear would be a motivation to see how dangerous I might be.  What were their motives?

Despite being forced to listen to bigotry and hate, I had to act as my own lawyer (see item 6).  It was a joke to expect me to act as my own lawyer,  pro-se, without accommodation or accessibility from the court.  My mental illness and my right to be a member of society was on trial.

Mental illness can make it difficult to organize and deal with information.  I needed time to research the claims being made and continue to take care of my issues with mental illness. In the past I had seen higher courts rule to protect the rights of the mentally ill in court, so I thought the court would work with me to provide this accessibility (see ADA and VA-award, next page).

The history of apathy when the mentally ill complain of bigotry and hate seems to be why no one cared.  It happened to St. Joan of Arc (item 1.j.), so hate crimes against people considered mentally ill (visions, voices, etc.) is part of tradition.  I could not call the actions against me a hate crime when it happened, because I was terrified!

a. exhibit-01:  My motion for Accessibility was "not to be well-taken and are hereby overruled".  For the court to ignore the seriousness of this issue only made it harder to defend myself.  The plaintiff's lawyer was free to attack and harass me about having mental illness, and the court did not seem concerned.  These actions against me by the court made me realize that it was a hopeless expect justice.

b. court-12-oct-01: (documents denied to me) - Oct. 12, 2001 - my final scheduled appearance - I do not understand what happened in the end.  On the first court appearance (6-26-2001) I waived my right to defend myself on the condition that it would happen at this final scheduled appearance.  The court promised that it would be so.  However, when I showed up at court on this later date it had been canceled!  After being given a run-around, I was finally told that I had failed to do something expected of me.  Therefore, the court gave a default judgment to the plaintiffs.

The clerk of court office refused to provide me with a copy of the latest decisions, so I left highly upset.  I had driven by myself from Toledo Ohio to Marion Ohio, about a two hour ride, only to have wasted my time.  I had no support legally or emotionally.  I was too upset to drive home safely, so I "stalked" the presidential monuments.  After several more hours I calmed down enough to drive home safely in disbelief.

How was I to consider an appeal to a higher court, in the time allowed, if the Marion clerk of court office refused to provide me with the necessary documents?  The only way I could deal with this situation was to escape into my work and try to forget.  I could not deal with these attacks against me that I was a "dangerous person."  This image was destroying my life and my mind.

 

8. Are Jaycees like a hate group or cult? - Additional exhibits

One thing that really upset the group was my suggesting that they were like a hate group or cult.  I based my belief on their confrontations over my having a mental illness.  They thought it was acceptable to question and attack me because they were afraid.  Why did they think it was wrong for me to question their attacks and suggest that they were acting like a cult or hate group?

So far I have only included exhibits that the plaintiff's lawyer seemed most worried about.  I have over 300 pages of documents from the case, so it was hard to organize this website.  A few of the exhibits also appear to be lost or not given to me.  Here are some other exhibits that I did not include so far:
.exhibit-07: a poorer copy of the charges filed (same as exhibit-24, page 1).
.exhibit-13: another copy of board meeting exhibit-02.
.exhibit-26: judgment entry
.exhibit-34-n-35: by-laws for the civic group at state and national level
.exhibit-37: e-mail to groups website at state level
.exhibit-39: I do not know when this was put on the internet.  It was printed out on 6-5-2001.
.exhibit-40: Hate group information from the internet.  (They complained because I questioned if they were acting like one.)
.exhibit-41, exhibit-45, exhibit-46, exhibit-47-to-49, and exhibit-53-n-54: messages I had posted on the internet.
.exhibit-55-n-56, exhibit-58, exhibit-59, exhibit-60, and exhibit-62: more messages that I posted.
.exhibit-63: pages from my website complaining about the prosecutor.
.exhibit-65: More web pages complaining about civil rights and freedom of speech.
.exhibit-66-n-67: last exhibits for messages that I posted.
.exhibit-69: This is the highest numbered exhibit that I have.  This is a judgment entry for my first court appearance on June 26, 2001.  Notice that the plaintiff's wanted to make my first court appearance the one that would decide my fate.  However the judge denied it because of my objection.  The court promised on this first appearance that I would have the chance to defend myself at the final scheduled appearance on 10-12-2001.

You may also look at the directory - /why - for a list of the files.

9. New developments in 2004

As you will see on the next page, it was in 2004 that I finally found hope.  I was e-mailed that the plaintiff's lawyer had been permanently disbarred for dishonesty in another case.  I was also told that he lied in court during my case about his grandmother being killed by someone with depression.  The claim is that she died of cancer.  I did not know how to confirm his grandmother's death, however, I found his disablement decision on the Ohio Supreme Court website (link below).

In the civil case, I had complained to the court about dishonesty and other improper behavior by this lawyer.  Nothing was done about it then, but now my belief is confirmed by his finally being disbarred.

See the plaintiff lawyer's permanent disbarment decision, for dishonesty

It took most of 2004 to properly organize everything on this website.  I had to deal with my own memories and emotions in order to focus on what was truly important.  It was a long and painful process to realize how the attacks against my mental illness were my greatest hardship.  If I complained then it was used against me.  If I did nothing then I remained a victim like so many others with mental illness.

Was the civic group a good experience for me, as my co-worker had hoped?  (See his letter, page 2 item 3.c., co-worker-2.)  It was an experience that I would have to deal with.  As you will see on the following pages, I realized how much the issue was with society.  People must believe in ethics, morals, and humane values to make any difference.  The wisdom of the ages is wasted on those who do not care.  It is a different world now.

(Strike the last of what I just said.  The world never became what was hoped, and the situation is now more confusing.)
 

10. My answer to their court complaint - Oct. 2006

I sent a reply the last week of September 2006.  Here is a pdf copy:

a.  reply-to-complaint

More to come.  I planed to "win" regardless of how they act.  All the civic group can do is determine their image to the world.  Will they choose compassion and truth?  Or do they continue to desire stigma, bigotry, and hate?  We will see.

By responding to their dishonest claims of fantasy, I have taken one step to confront the nightmare of stigma caused by the U.S. army and the State of Ohio.  Knowing the truth about society in general is another issue.  I will have to fight as long as government leaders ignore their role in these issues.

By failing to respond one thing is certain.  No one is concerned about discovering the actual truth.  They have already made their decisions.
 

Avoidant Personality Disorder may be an issue the army and Jaycees gave me?