Avoidant Personality Disorder may be an issue the army and Jaycees gave me?

I am not big into conspiracy theories.  Yet it happened to me as shown...

0. A Criminal Complaint against the Jaycees Civic Group - Bowling Green, Ohio, protects VIP criminals.
1. Police Confrontation (9-17-98)
2. Writing about my Stigma before I knew it was mental illness Stigma.
3. The Invocation (the Jaycees Group's Confrontation on 3-10-99)
4. Silently Confronted to Leave (April 1999 Bowling Green Jaycees meeting)
5. Cards Sent to Members - I wanted to stop being confronted with harassment!
 
 

Discovering views of mental illness from the Jaycees.
 

I did not see all the causes and effects when I first published these pages in January 2005.  Telling the truth is not enough if details are forgotten, ignored, or not realized as important.  I always believed that a large group of people acted like criminals making me fear for my life.  But I could do nothing about it, other than tell authorities and write letters hoping the people would stop hurting me.  Those letters were my attempt to record the truth that I understood. If I knew in 1998 and 1999 what I know now, then I would have pushed charges against the Bowling Green Jaycees in Ohio for stalking and criminal conspiracy.  It is documented by the group that I was an active member for over six months while they questioned and harassed me about my motives and mental illness.  In the end they claimed I was stalking them when they were stalking me first as a group! Worse was the involvement of Prosecutor Matthew Reger of Bowling Green, Ohio.  He read my letters and failed to "see my words"!  Why give "sane" people so much help in finding a criminal complaint then expect a "nutcase" to provide all the details for a crime?  Prosecutor Reger's double standards are documented as evidence against me.  I believe that he knowingly protected members of the Bowling Green Jaycees from criminal prosecution. See his letters on the next page of evidence.

0.  A Criminal Complaint against a Civic Group

I have tried my best to have the crimes against me prosecuted in Bowling Green, Ohio.  The police have sided with my attackers and refused to listen to my complaints.  The Jaycees had the support of city prosecutor Matthew Reger who was a member.  I guess it is ok to be criminals when you have the protection of police and prosecutors.  Apparently no checks and balances exist in Ohio to prevent such corruption, conspiracy, and cover-up.

When I was too confused to be a good lawyer (as had been expected from me), I claimed that the civic group had committed the crime of "hazing".  In fact menacing by stalking and conspiracy as a group are the real crimes that might be proven.  This was focused around the groups attempt to get me to date Lori Terwilliger, another member of the Jaycees my age.

Lori had been annoying another member named Lloyd Shelton.  My coworker Tim Tegge was friends with Lloyd and suggested that I date Lori to "get her to stop thinking about him".  Being that I was a naive fool about what I was getting into, I blindly accepted.

On our first date Lori Terwilliger told me about how the Jaycees civic group had helped her overcome stigma of being handicapped.  (She walked funny).  It seemed that she told me her entire life at the start. My diagnosed mental illness, bipolar disorder, had not been a serious problem for years.  I had no reason to bring it up except to mention social problems and depression.

I sent Lori Terwilliger a card explaining the "Chaos" of our first date.  On a second date she told me that she showed it to Lloyd, and how great he was.  I began to realize that her true motives were not very fair to anyone.  My problems with bipolar disorder seemed pale compared to her desired fantasy world.  This was becoming a bad situation filled with worry and fear..

Worse was the members of the Jaycees trying to "make us fall in love".  It was more confusing each day.  Compassion was my "evil" when nothing else added up.  I started becoming "manic depressive" and thought I had disorganized thoughts.  In fact I was feeling and thinking the thoughts and emotions of everyone at work and the civic group.  I was trying to play God by being fair to everyone which was not possible.

All the harassment was focused on Lori Terwilliger, so I started writing her letters complaining about her actions and what was happening.  I could not escape the situation because my coworker Tim Tegge brought the issues with him to work.  Eventually I broke down and confessed my fears to the parents of Lori (who she lived with) hoping that they could stop the chaos.  The result was the following police harassment which pushed everything more out of control!

Don't take my word for it.  Almost a year later when I was forced to act as a lawyer and name a crime committed by the Jaycees before anyone would do anything, I picked hazing.  So as a token effort lawyer Steven L Spitler was appointed to investigate my claim of hazing.  (No effort was made to work with me as had been given to the civic group).  Anyway the core truth is recorded by Attorney Steven L. Spitler of Bowling Green, Ohio in the following document:

 hazing-1.pdf --- The core truth to how the Jaycees stalking me began!

pdf note:  Because I converted these documents to text pdf to save space, some may look funny.  You can see parts of the original text which did not get converted because of distortions, faintness, or other issues.

It took this situation to discover that justice can be blind, stupid, foolish, or outright criminal.  Yet you are expected to respect the law or even act as your own lawyer against real criminals!
 
 

1. Police Confrontation (9-17-98)

I was being blamed for hurting Lori Terwilliger.  My complaints that the Jaycees groups actions were hurting me was considered "a personal problem".  I wrote to Lori about the situation.  Then I wrote her parents, whom she lived with, about the fears directed at me due to this situation:

confessing my fears: 

("Manic depression" is bi-polar mood disorder.)

“Officer Mark Hanson came to my work place Tosh Electronics in Bowling Green, Ohio, asking me to go outside.  He was seriously upset about the letters and hard to understand.  He said if I do not stop that I would be sued.  I explained about the Jaycees, my co-worker Tim Tegge was a member, I suffered from “manic depression”, I did not know how to deal with the situation.  He said that I am “sick”.  I explained I needed help.  He did not care.  I wanted to die to escape the images of confrontation and blame.  The group still wanted me to be friends with her, I asked what to do.  He said not to contact her, unless she contacts me.”

Also, Officer Hanson had no reason to confront me at work and making it a concern for my coworkers.  It was actually Tim Tegge, the one who helped get me into this mess, who told me the police had arrived to "talk" to me!  After the police harassment I could not work and told Tim and other coworkers how I felt.  They defended the sick harassment like I had deserved it!

If only I had known the truth of stigma, bigotry, and hate of mental illness in 1998 when this was happening.  Even though I discovered the impact of stigma in 2004, new facts and observations about these social evils and crimes are being found.  I can thank cowards for forcing me to figure it all out for myself.

(* The officer did not recognize my ADA or other rights.  He did not report the need for medical attention, or that I might be a danger to myself or others.  He did note “manic depression”.  He also noted that I was "very cooperative", which is how I had been with the civic group.)

 

2. Writing about my Stigma before I knew it was mental illness Stigma.

When these events took place I did not know it was Stigma, or how to properly fight discrimination.  I did not learn about mental illness Stigma until 2004, when I discovered CineManiaStigma.com.  (To tell the truth, my current protesting efforts still do not appear to fight the discrimination.  My roommate my be correct that society is hopeless.)

I talked about the confrontation with co-workers.  One, with criminal law experience, suggested the trouble I would face, who would a jury believe? Later there was contact with the lady as a result of group functions.  I did not start contact, so I could not discuss how we could avoid it.  This undefined situation bothered me and I wrote the lady's parents again.  The Jaycees group continued to accept me at meetings.  I had no rules to govern what was expected of me, so I started writing again (exhibit-3 and others below).  In the end these letters were to the entire Jaycees group, sparking the next incidents.  The group later called this harassment, though members continued to contact me.

A serious issue for my mental illness was the influence on my job at Tosh Electronics.  Going to work reminded me of the police confrontation because that is where it happened.  I also had to keep working with my co-worker Tim Tegge who was a representative of the Jaycees civic group.  It was too easy to talk with Tim and hear his opinions of what the Jaycees group thought and what I should do.  (In many ways I felt trapped as I had felt in the army, having to work in an environment where I was attacked for my "personal problems".)

exhibit 3, page 2 - effect of the "test": 

a. exhibit-03-p11-to-14:   Myself and the lady who I had dated both worked on the group's fundraiser in October 1998.  However, members of the group were still acting strange around me from after the police confrontation.  I felt that they would not let it go, so I wrote the letters on page 11, 12, 19, 22, and 23 of exhibit 3.

b. p19-to-23:  Pages 20 and 21 were modified copies of the original "fears" letters sent to Lori Terwilliger's parents (item 1 above).  Society lacks so much compassion that the Jaycees could not see that it was what I was talking about* (see note below).  Instead they saw violence, the growing theme in society.  People were confronting me about my behavior, and being lonely was what I felt at the time.  (It is what society does to people with mental illness.)   The cards were sent later.

c. exhibit-03-p01-to-05 and p06-to-09:  Letter sent at Christmas time 1998.  On page 6, I address some of the things that the police man had confronted me about.  Note my mentioning Willy Wonka on page 9 and the following letter (2.d.) that I received back from my co-worker.

d. co-worker-1:  This was the response from my co-worker to the above letter included in pages 2 to 9 of exhibit-03.

Do people try to find truth or do they make up what they wish to believe?
 
 

3. The Invocation (the BG Jaycees Confrontation on March 10, 1999)

During the first few months of 1999 my relations with the Bowling Green Ohio Jaycees seemed to improve.  I thought that worst was behind me, and was even asked to read an invocation for the March 10th meeting by my co-worker.  As would be discovered in the later criminal and civil cases against me, I did not realize how much anger was still being felt about my actions and fear of my mental illness.  The message of the invocation and the stares of certain members was clear enough to me!

I did not know it at the time, but March 1999 is also when the Prosecutor is first listed as a member of the group (see item 1.d. on the next page).  The prosecutor has denied involvement with the group and the groups conduct against me.  His advise and legal support would better explain the actions of the group during and after March 1999.

a. BG-meetings:  With the March 10, 1999 "Invocation" meeting at the beginning, this .pdf file is a collection of the meetings I am listed as attending.

b. co-worker-2, page 4:  This is a copy of what I was asked to read at the meeting.  Unfortunately, when I saw this copy I wrote my feelings on it and sent a copy to the lady who I had dated.  She was one of the people at the meeting, as you can see in item 3.a. above.  I felt that she was the best one to plead the group to stop confronting me, for obvious reasons.

asked to read at meeting: 

from my co-worker:

 

d. BG-board-mike:  I attended a Bowling Green Jaycees board meeting on March 17, 1999.

 

4. Silently Confronted to Leave (April 1999 meeting)

It is hard to explain what happened at the April meeting.  It was when I should have renewed my membership.  However, the key people at the meeting treated me coldly and were unwilling to talk with me.  I knew that they were upset with me but they would not explain what was going on.  I became so upset that I left the meeting dazed and confused.  This was a group who claimed to care.

One thing was certain.  The civic group was not concerned about discovering the actual truth.  They had already made their decision.  It seems that most organizations fail when they willingly hide from the truth - including businesses, civic groups, governments, or entire nations.  History proves this fact.

a. exhibit-02:  I found out many months later that I had been voted out of the civic group on April 11, 1999.  I can never understand why they did not tell me!  I had to find out months later when I went to the library and looked at the old board meeting minutes.

 

5. Cards Sent to Members

I wanted to stop being confronted!  The shock of the last incident made me question what was wrong more deeply.  I started writing greater numbers of letters and cards to group members, trying to explore every angle of what was going on.  It was the lack of explicit reasons that was the real problem.  They did not tell me that I was no longer a member or why.  They simply drove me away and I did not understand it.  (I did not realize that my mental illness was also getting worse.)

a. exhibit-03-p18 and exhibit-03-p24-to-25:  I became so irrational trying to find a reason for my behavior that I imagined what must have happened.  The complaints about me centered on my having dated the lady from the group.  With the fears that I expressed in the "fears" letter, I thought something bad happened to me as a child.  It was easy to imagine unwanted sex, because it is a common childhood evil experience.  Unfortunately this became part of the claims that I expressed in the cards and later letters.  I was too confused to know the real reasons for my behavior.  As you will see, I was later confronted about this imagined fear of sex in court.

cards sent members: 

Society's answer to complaints about stigma is to blame it on mental illness, causing more stigma?
 

Avoidant Personality Disorder may be an issue the army and Jaycees gave me?