The war for mental illness truth!

. Introduction: Falling through the cracks - my housemate almost dies from ignored issue. . Secret recordings and new evidence. - the court made public release necessary. . Lack of individual social, political and legal support for mentally ill - by NAMI and others. . Help me start an organization to advocate for and support individuals. - help protest. . Served nation now forgotten mentally ill veterans: VA drugs are not enough! Mike's story. . Ohio Courts support stigma, violate civil rights and ADA handicap law, deny due process. . Response from Senator Mike DeWine and Congresswoman Marcy Kaptur. . Protest photos & Help me pick signs - See where I am protesting, live, by GPS. . Links - Guestbook - Who I am - Mike's photos - Contact - Self Help - Old subjects

-One interesting thing about jail is that it seems intended to hurt a good person more than someone who does not give a damn.  If you do not believe me then try it for real.  Except it would have less effect unless you were afraid and knew you did not deserve to be there.  Perhaps I am only weak from all the past isolation that I experienced from being called mentally ill.
 

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Introduction: Handicap discrimination from Bowling Green, Ohio, has taken a turn for the worst.  I did not want to call it political, but Bowling Green's Republican judge, Republican head prosecutor, and even the Republican mayor are involved in allowing me to suffer harm.  Hear and see the evidence for yourself in the secret tape recordings I am now making public on You Tube and elsewhere. The Republican sheriff of Wood County also has ignored looking at my complaints of corruption within his county, which includes what seems to be corruption by the Bowling Green, Ohio, police!  I hate stereotyping it as a Republican corruption and conspiracy issue, but these Republicans seem to have no trouble stereotyping me as a criminal nutcase out to induce panic, break the law, and I am even told I will kill people! Weak medical system almost kills my housemate. I have told my roommate's medical people time and time again that I go with her to learn and help her remember what she needs to know.  On June 6th, 2008, I went to pick her up after she spent the night recovering from a stent placed with a catheter into a blood vessel of her heart which was about 80% clogged. She apparently had been given a prescription for Plavix which was necessary to prevent the stint from getting clogged.  But because I was not there when she was told to take the medicine, there was no one to remind her when she forgot. In the morning of June 11th she started having chest pain.  We live about a mile from the hospital so she had me take her to the emergency room and tests showed something was going on with her heart.  They asked about Plavix but neither of us knew anything about it.  They kept her overnight to do a catheter the next day to see what was going on, while also giving her blood thinners. On June 12th they discovered that her stint had become 100% clogged because she had not been using the Plavix.  She swears up and down not remembering being told about it.  I only saw the doctor on the day of the stint and he had said nothing then, so I had no idea what I may have missed. When I finally found the stuff she took home from the hospital the prescription was there.  For several years I have complained that my housemate Michelle has memory problems and could use a social worker to help keep everything straight.  However there is no help for her other than what I can provide, and this website shows I am already exceeding my limits. I feel bad that normally I might have asked more questions and prevented this medical emergency.  However, my mind is stressed because I am still waiting for a handicapped bed on the psychiatry ward at the Ann Arbor VA hospital.  On June 5th I asked to go in because of the recent Asperger Syndrome issues.  They had no handicap beds open so they sent me to the local Rescue Mental Health Services. The local services ran into similar placement issues plus the fact that the VA was my medical provider.  Because I am only stressed beyond my limits and not dangerous, they decided to let me go home and check on me until the VA has a bed.  The one plus side was that I was at home to help my housemate. As of June 14th I am still waiting for a hospital bed.  This is the problem with psychiatric care, they seem little help unless you get so bad you are dangerous.  Getting arrested should be a serious mental health issue, even if the arrest was illegal.  Jail by nature can cause psychological harm.  Especially when no one seems concerned about the degree of your medical problems.

(You can copy and use this cartoon if left as is.) The above cartoon is how I felt as a member of the United States Junior Chamber of Commerce.  Society has a choice to ignore these issues or find strength in support, help, and compassion. Two years ago I discovered MentalHealthStigma.com which inspired my efforts to confront stigma, like in the cartoon. Mental illness seems to be a bigger money maker for news and movies than it is a social issue! This cartoon also shows why it is easier to write about these issues than to talk about them.  Bowling Green, Ohio, and the army are my strongest experiences with this social evil.

 

Previously at the start of this website: The first FBI confrontation a week before the VA Tech Killings by Cho got me scared.  When I watched the horror of public views about 33 people dead and all the blame put on Cho for our dysfunctional legal systems, I got more scared.  When I finally had the guts to confront my worse fears, got more scared, so I wrote almost every FBI field office complaining about the first FBI visit.  So, the sick FBI sends back the same agent to teach me a lesson. Normal people have friends and police protection.  I only have fear for obvious reasons, due to the conduct of army, VA, Jaycees, and everyone else who ignored what I was saying. The nightmare caused by my membership in the United States Junior Chamber of Commerce, or Jaycees for short, made me worry that they would eventually kill me to shut me up. I chose not to live this way.  I am fighting terrorism against the mentally ill.  I share my experience of attacks from the US army, the Jaycees, Ohio legal system, FBI, and Department of Veterans Affairs. In addition to my evidence on this website I recommend MentalHealthStigma.com for evidence of how news, movies, and politics promote this terrorism and stigma of mental illness.  Jail and other harm is threatened in an attempt to shut us up when we complain. The answering machine tape by Jaycees member Lori Terwilliger explains one motive for their harassment.  Members of the Bowling Green Ohio Jaycees asked me to date her because she was stalking Lloyd Shelton.  Under the pressure of the Jaycees group to distract her from Lloyd being in conflict with her fantasy, the truth was confusing me.  The letters and phone calls she mentions show my trying to "play their game".  She acted like she wanted compassionate solutions. It was her friends in the Jaycees who bullied me with harassment, like Ben Otley. While some call me a nutcase, I am also helping our national security with my inventions like the parabolic discone, liquid metal wire, high q telescopic coil and other inventions. The FBI agents who confronted me in my home on Aug. 21 made it clear I must tolerate my fears of harassment, corruption, illegally labeled a terrorist in civil court by the Jaycees, and make complaints in person to authority or I will be ignored.  Attackers claim they will listen after they harass me as guilty. Destructive delusions must be confronted with truth if they remain a trap.  I never threatened to physically harm anyone else ever!  It is not my nature.  However, the Jaycees organization had harassed me about such concerns until I became obsessed with them!  The truth is documented and witnessed as discussed here, and in Bowling Green and Marion, Ohio records. The conduct of the Bowling Green Jaycees, Ohio Jaycees and nationally amounts to the crime of menacing by stalking.  I had complained about Jaycees harassment and stalking to police, prosecutors, FBI, local newspapers and TV.  It is documented that they ignored me or supported the Jaycees destructive behavior.  Was it because I admitted having a mental illness of bipolar disorder?  Court documents suggest it! If they take legal action to dispute or silence my claims then I will sue for at least $100,000 to address the psychological harm, loss of work, and damaged repute caused by their harassment that I might kill newspaper editor Marie Thomas or other members.  BG Jaycees member Lori Terwilliger admits why I was confronted.  The Jaycees refused to address the destructive influence of their actions.  Ask my witnesses! To see delusions about me and other unwanted Jaycees members, check out the forums at JayceeForum.com.  It is interesting how a group will engage in libel and gossip without concern for the long term effects of harassment and fear that untrue statements can cause.  Thank God they make the actions easy to record. To deal with pain and anger I am picketing: Jaycees events, WTOL-11, Bowling Green Sentinel-Tribune, BG police, court, Wood County and Marion County Sheriff, FBI, and others who chose to ignore the crimes against me.  I expect the Jaycees will do what they can to hide the truth again, like the FBI and VIP's.   Toledo Ohio psychiatrist Bhupinder S. Chahal,  M.D. may be a criminal based on his actions in the involuntary detention of my roommate Michelle starting Jan. 15th.  She was forgetting to take medicines not related to mental health and trusted her doctors who told her to go visit the MCO hospital emergency room.  That is how she discovered herself the lack of ethics relating to the mentally ill, as I discovered years ago. Ohio's mental health law appears designed to allow psychiatrist's to engage in criminal behavior if they can claim good faith, true or not. It seems that picketing the actions of Doctor Bhupinder Chahal is the only way to see any justice for his irrational behavior.  It is certain that Michelle will never trust doctors again, so the actions taken in the name of mental health have caused more harm than good. Despite the claims of 72 hour confinement, I am seeking legal help to release her ASAP due to the unlawful use of a law intended to help serious mental illness issues.  Considering my problems are far worse than hers as mentioned on this website, it is ironic that she would suffer from the dysfunctional system and I never received involuntary detention despite claims that I was crazy enough to kill.  The "experts" must be crazy! Michael Lake. See protest photos or my inventions.

 

The Three Faces of Life:

There is what people expect you to be,
there is what you want to be,
and what you must be to survive.

(Mental health support tends to fail because it ignores these three faces of life.)

If you claim that I am dangerous then I have a right to explicitly understand why.  Otherwise your claims do nothing but to harm me, making you the actual criminal.  Communication is a two way (or more) process in which all percipients share a duty.  It is natural to expect the stronger to assist the weaker in making it an honest process.

The mind is an imagination machine fueled by emotion and ideas.  The Jaycees were a civic group based on positive values, like the Jaycee Creed.  My coworker said it would do me good.  Then add expectations of dating, delusions that I am dangerous, and mix until my grip on reality breaks.  Who catches me?
 
 

Vote on the best protest signs:
Results updated every 1 to 15 days.

WhyHope.com: Stop Fear and Hate of Mental Illness a., 12 votes . WhyHope.com: Mental Illness Discrimination by gov., VA, police & law b., 4 votes . WhyHope.com: We are  human not Contagious c., 21 votes . WhyHope.com: Justice for all, except mentally ill? d., 2 votes . WhyHope.com: Mental illness is isolation & despair e., 7 votes . News bias is mental illness problem ________ WhyHope.com f., 1 votes . WhyHope.com: Mental stigma makes me sick! g., 7 votes . WhyHope.com: Fix VA Mental Health Support h., 2 votes . WhyHope.com: Who protects the Mentally ill? i., 18 votes . WhyHope.com: Ready for your mental illness problems? j., 1 votes . WhyHope.com: Does anyone care about the "Mentally ill"? k., 8 votes . WhyHope.com: Tell government Veterans need Help! l., 5 votes . WhyHope.com: Stop stigma and hate of mental illness m., 10 votes . WhyHope.com: Weak government, weak nation, no compassion. n., 5 votes WhyHope.com: End attacks on the mentally ill. o., 13 votes . WhyHope.com: Served nation, now forgotten veterans. p., 6 votes . WhyHope.com: Millions mentally ill need help q., 7 votes . WhyHope.com: Compassion needed for mentally ill r., 9 votes . WhyHope.com: Mentally ill + Support = Harmony s., 2 votes . WhyHope.com: Pick a mental illness protest sign t., 1 votes . Stop Terrorism against Mentally ill Whyhope.com x., 4 votes Mentally ill deserve jail, not help? Whyhope.com y., 1 votes Give up, you have no rights! Whyhope.com z., 0 votes WhyHope.com should be on top: u., 5 votes WhyHope.com should be at bottom: v., 14 votes w. Suggestions:  (so far: 1. We are human not Contagious, 2. Mentally ill + Support = Harmony) When you are finished: Instead of protesting, I would sooner invent like on my HamDomain.com. If I do not protest then nothing will change.

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Who I am:
Contrast between my abilities and influence of problems started in the army is "tearing my mind apart". Practical issues matter!
 

Positive	#	Negative
I recently invented the "Parabolic Discone", "liquid metal elastic stretchable wire", and other ideas. I have the genius to contribute to society in major ways despite mental illness (like the movie "A Beautiful Mind").	1	In the army a diagnosis of mental illness subjected me to fear, bigotry and hate. As a result the army, a civic group, and prosecutors claim I am a Dangerous Person. These claims destroyed my social life and hope for a family. My regular Veterans Affairs mental health doctors have ignored these issues. (See va-award, page 3, "Ann Arbor" and compare with real evidence on this website.)
1988: When entering the army I proved my abilities and graduated the top of my class in electronics warfare school.	2	1989: After army school I was diagnosed with a mental illness, "bipolar disorder". The army punished me for this medical problem. I believe the memories haunt me today as PTSD.
1999: Instead of letting my past experience and society be a "destructive influence", I started looking for the truth myself. This website is a record of that quest. My getting into Ham Radio and ability to invent patentable inventions are how I have tried to help myself.	3	2003: I have written government leaders like Congresswoman Marcy Kaptur, Senator Mike DeWine, and Ohio Governor Bob Taft looking for support with my VA and government connected problems (unethical Ohio legal system, etc.). They do not seem to understand the truth!
2003: I overcame the most terrifying of my problems. I had seemed to be in a trance or "dream" for most of the time since the army, as if I had no control over my fate. It appeared to be like a continuous type of PTSD and related to stress and stigma.	4	2003:  Despite breaking my past trance, I developed a "replacement problem". I had not tried very hard to find out why I was limping until my foot went numb. A spinal cord tumor ultimately caused me to be paralyzed. Depression and anger started to be more of an issue.
?	5	In the past I have hidden my problems with mental illness by using determination and genius. Today I am paralyzed and the effort it takes to deal with physical problems makes it harder to deal with my mental health. Together these problems are too much to deal with at times.
I could potentially support myself working a few hours a week on patentable ideas. (Most of my time is spent taking care of myself or resting due to fatigue from being paralyzed.)	6	I do not have the money, time, or ability to patent my ideas or protect my legal rights. My disability income is barely enough to survive on. Trying to publish my ideas has been a problem. It is hard to focus and write good articles when your mind is in chaos and your bladder feels like it is turning inside out.
Credit Cards and finances have not been a major problem because I keep paying ahead one month, so that if I forget it will not hurt me.	7	Because I "appear" to be so good with credit, they have given me more than they should. At the moment my income balances with the credit card payments, mortgage, property tax, utilities, car payments, insurance, with a little left for food. I fool myself into thinking I can afford things, then pinch pennies trying to un-do the damage.
I believe that compassion is my greatest strength, and also "The meaning of life, the universe, and everything."	8	I also believe that this world may destroy it's self due to a growing lack of compassion in society.
2006: Instead of waiting for VA help, I paid for counseling.  The non-VA counselor said that it had been my choice in the army and civic group. I could have gone AWOL in the army to escape. A co-worker was part of the civic group, so quitting my job would have been necessary.  Where these fair choices?	9	2006: The VA finally gave me counseling in response to my "angry" letter. Unfortunately they are worried about my anger and not the issues that are making me angry.
When I became paralyzed the VA provided great medical support. I was given therapy and advice on dealing with the world. They gave me things to help deal with life like wheelchairs and a lift for my van.	1 0	I have constantly told doctors in the VA about about my mental health problems, and they did very little to help other than drugs. I feel that the VA mental health system is almost worthless for providing practical support! Why did they provide so much support for my being paralyzed but not for mental illness?

 

Do I have Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder?

I believe I developed "Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder" (PTSD) in army. It started in 1989 after diagnosed with BiPolar Disorder.
See evidence to support having Posttraumatic Stress Disorder.
 

Hardball about Mental illness, Stigma and Society This is how I am dealing with stigma of "my" mental illness, bipolar disorder. As a disabled veteran, I should feel proud that I protected and served my country. Instead many people think I am dangerous like Rambo in the movie "First Blood". This is what law enforcement and "experts" claimed. The best way for the mentally ill to fight back is to play "hardball". Who cares if the mentally ill are victims? Authorities will use hardball to claim that someone is sick, dangerous, or a killer - even if it is a lie! When the mentally ill complain of a crime, who is willing to investigate? Harassment was the army's response after I was diagnosed with mental illness in 1989. Medical people said I could be a productive soldier. My chain of command convinced me that I am worthless.  Prosecutor Matthew Reger of Bowling Green, Ohio, knowingly ignored criminal complaints against the Jaycees who were harassing me for having mental illness. Despite mentioning harassment and hate from members of the group, it took writing to Judge Reddin of the Bowling Green Ohio Court before a "token" investigation took place. Hundreds of letters prove the stigma of mental illness. Instead of giving up I contacted thousands Jaycees members looking for one person to help. My pay back was more harassment, threats, and finally being brought to court by the United States Junior Chamber of Commerce and Ohio Jaycees. The Marion County Ohio civil court decides the mentally ill kill people? Statements that "persons suffering from manic depression ... kill others" were acceptable to Judge Davidson? I asked the judge for decorum to deal with this attack on my mental illness. I had a handicap protected by the Americans with Disabilities Act. It was "not to be well-taken and overruled"? Courts expect the mentally ill to represent themselves, pro-se, in an environment of bigotry and hate? Government officials, the ACLU, and NAMI were not interested in the situation. * in 2004. Don't expect the government or anyone to care about you! Why Hope to survive with stigma or mental illness? This website has over 200 pages of evidence about my experience: Attacks, punishment, fear and stigma for having a mental illness, BiPolar Disorder. A lack of finding support and having to act as my own advocate in the worst of situations. - additional hardball subjects

 

My favorite links related to mental illness:

• The Criminalization of Mental Illness & Movies from MentalHealthStigma.com. -I am afraid of society because of this history of hate and stigma in the media and elsewhere.
• Legal and advocate links -  for the mentally ill on my DemandJustice.com.
• Enervive - Encouraging the creativity within all mental disorders.

My other websites:

DemandJustice.com - websites relating to justice.

SchrodingersCat.com - Science interests. Scientists like Albert Einstein were believed to have mental illness.

My original website - NiceMike.com - information about me and work history.
 

 On this website:

Site Menu

New Orleans proving that "Society can not survive without compassion!" - The Difference between Terrorists, Criminals, and Heroes.

Does the VA care about harm caused by the army? - My "service connected" mental illness results in poor health and social problems. For trying to serve and protect our nation, do I deserve to be forgotten? The U.S. Department of Veterans Affairs has failed to provide the support that I request.

My Photos - Look at photos from the life of someone with mental illness. These pictures may surprise some people. It was too easy to forget the good in my life after I had been confronted for being mentally ill.

My life - mental illness is creativity or danger? - Doctors did not warn me about the social dangers of living with a mental illness, Bipolar Disorder.  Mental Health workers and psychiatrists did not tell me about discrimination or the ADA, the Americans with Disabilities Act. All the important things I had to learn after I was attacked for being mentally ill. I also discuss Schizoaffective Disorder, which is like mild schizophrenia.

In court, they say that I will kill them - they claim "... It is well-recognized that persons suffering from manic depression often contemplate and even act upon their suicidal thoughts. Unfortunately, all too often persons having such low self-esteem and death wishes chose to kill others in conjunction with destroying themselves."

Credit Cards bad for mentally ill? - The confusion and impulses with mental illnesses make credit cards risky: 1. Do you understand the real risks when you sign for one? 2. Would you remember not to go over your limit and send payments in time? 3. What if you ended up in the hospital?

What I have learned by running this website - Why hope to change anything if the people who need to listen will not? Hate Crimes are acceptable against the Mentally ill? - Saint Joan of Arc experienced "voices and visions" and was murdered for it. NAMI^{* and} other advocates cause harm?

History - Old copies of this website.

My crazy beliefs:  God, Life, Universe, Everything -  + SaintMike.net

Have a copy of this website, updated 5-5-07:
I am still afraid of those people who want to silence me like VIPs in Ohio. So here is a copy of this website in case something happens.  If I disappear let people see. God only knows if I am paranoid or realistic.
 

You need both:  whyhope-main.zip (100 KB) + whyhope-why-subdirectory.zip (4.65 MB)

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* 4 - BiPolar Disorder has been called: BiPolar illness, Manic Depressive illness, Bi-Polar Disorder, Bi-Polar Mood Disorder and variations.

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